The King Is Back!!!!!

I am home now in Baltimore!! I am sooooooo glad to be back. I needed a break after finals and all. I did get the grade for two of my finals. I have a B+ in my Paleoanthropology class and an A+ in my Latin II class. I am doin the damn thing up there in the "land of the frozen sun" aka Erie, PA.

So it is all sunshine here. Thats good because I have seen too much snow. I eat, sleep, breathe, and shit snow (maybe I dont shit it but you get the picture). I have a load of things to do. One is check out some potential jobs. I got an email about possibly working an archaeology site here in Baltimore. I also may work with St. Ignatius over the summer. I might also work at the aquarium. So I have some choices since I am not going to field school.

Let me get going yall. I just woke up and my breath smells like a dragon's. Talk to you later!!

Me fighting at my tournament. I look like a champ in this one!!!





I had my first boxing match this Friday. I lost (i know jameil and cnel are a little disappointed. I may have lost but I gave it my all. If you could have seen it!!! We were fighting in there as if we hated each other!! I kept trying to knock him down but that kid kept getting up. He could take a punch!! He had 2 standing 8 counts and so did me. The ref ended up calling the fight because he could see that I just ran out of gas. After the first round, I just was burned out (there are only 3 rounds in amateur boxing). I kept fighting in the second round but about 20 seconds left I ran out of gas. I thought I could knock him out but he would not fall. No matter how many times I knocked him down, he got back up.I had him on the bottom rope but he just would not fall. Plus each punch in the second round got successively weaker due to my failing energy. The ref did not want me getting hurt so he called the fight.

I gave it my all in that damn ring. I really did so I have nothing to be ashamed of. I left everything in that ring. I hit harder than I have ever hit. I worked harder in that ring last nite than I have ever worked at anything in my life. So I accomplished something. Not too many people have the fortitude to get into a ring and fight. It takes some biiiiiiiiiiiiggggg balls to fight. I am not ashamed of losing. After the ref called the fight, I told my coach that tried my hardest. My coach smiled said that was all that I needed to do.

So now my neck hurts and I have a headache. But I am happy.

Valentines Day

Yesterday was the greatest.

The ex girlfriend drama
I have officialy said f*ck that skeezer. I was sooooooo pissed at her because I have been stressed this week. As Cnel can attest, I rarely show the signs of stress but this week had already started to get to me yesterday. So when she came with the drama, I was bugging. I have come to realize that I am still hurt by her. Even after she crossed and I decided to not be friends with her, I am still hurt by what she did. We promised that as friends, we would never date each other's friends. She actually came up with this idea since all her friends have a thing for me. I did actually still care for her as a friend. Since she crossed me, I figured it aint woth the hurt so I cut her off and my homeboy she was messing with. And after some deep thought yesterday, i decided that I will not say anything to her because thats what she wants. Thanks to all who responded!! You all gave some truth.

The best part of the day!!
I had planned to cook dinner for my girlfriend. We were suppose to start cooking at 5:30. The menu was sauteed shrimp, steamed corn on the cob, and broccoli with cheese. We were gonna drink sparkling cider. So my roommates Kevin and Shawn helped me clean the apartment and set the table. While they did that, I figured that I had forgot to get the sparkling cider. So I called my homegirl Savannity and had her drive to get some. This was at 5:15. It took us until about 5:45 to get going because she had a classmate come over for a project. I ended up getting me some wine alsob with the cider because I am bougie like. The girlfriend does not like wine but I have an affinity for it. Lol!!!

So I get back late, My girlfriend has already started baking. I get into the kitchen and started the throw down!!! I am I Chef Bou-ar-Negro!!! I decided against sautee-ing the the shrimp in just butter. I went ahead and used the white cooking wine I bout from Walmart on Thursday with some butter and garlic salt. It came out tasting righteous!!! I cannot give you the recipe because it is a G Willi exclusive and I had no idea what I was doing!!! It came out good. So I prepped the dinner and me and the girlfriend ate. I had the table set with this nice tea candle arrrangement. The mood was then set with some soft music. It felt soo good to have a quiet meal. We normally rush ad eat in the cafeteria or at the Laker because we got something to do. This time did what John Legend said: Took it slow.

Then we went to a jazz concert performed by our school's jazz band. It was hotness. My home girl Savannity did Summertime by Ella Fitzgerald. She did that song righteuously!!!! It was amazing!! And she had a banging outfit to go along with it. Savannity be workin it on the fashion tip. Another song I loved that was performed was "My Funy Valentine". If you like jazz music, check them songs out.

After that, we came back to my place and had dessert. My girlfrieand can bake the hell out of some cake!! It was delicious. The rest of the night was just spent relaxing and talking. It has been soooooooo long since we have been able to just chill without having some work to do. Yesterday was great. I would not want it any other way.

Heated

It is Tuesday and I am pissed!! My ex sent me some IM acting retarded. Here
is what she sent me.

BellaRagazza127 (12:27:28 AM): i must say gary, i expected you to be more
mature than not speaking to me, and taking me off your myspace friends and
all....thought u might b happy for me that i got into college. i guess i was
wrong, happy valentines day anyway....

Now she knows why I removed her off of my friends' list. First of all, she
has done me grimey. Sleeping with my friends and lying to me about it can be
considered grimey. So I called her when I found out and told her that we are
not friends. I proceeded to tell her that I never want to talk to her again.
I can quote what I said, " Even if I am forced to live as long as God
himself I will never talk or see you again. We are no longer friends."

Tell me if I am wrong, but if someone told you that, does it not mean that
we are no longer friends??? I believe it means we are no longer friends.
Since we are no longer friends, it means that I don't have to congratulate
you. I am allowed to remove you from whatever I please. I told her our
friendship is terminated. I have not talked to her in almost 2 months.What
doesn't she understand?!?!?!?!?!?

It does not help that I am stressed. So she picked the wrong nite to mess
with me. Never in my life have I ever had the urge so strong to punch
someone!!!! Now I do.

Lord give me the strength to not be sooooooooooo pissed. Please help me.
Someone tell me what to do. I apologize for the evil post. I just had to
vent. The rest of my Valentine�s Day is going to be perfect.

Tagged

Surprisingly, I was tagged. Here we go.

Four things.

Here it go.Four jobs I've had:
1. Counter and cleaner of rocks in the archaeology processing lab
2. Burger flipper
3. Community Organizer/Mobilizer
4. Civil War sailor

Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. Motorcycle Diaries
2. Maria Full of Grace
3. Love Jones
4. Ray

Four Places I have lived:
1. Baltimore
2. B-More
3. Bodymore
4. That's it

4 Shows I love:
1. A Different World -reruns but still
2. Real World - (Maybe it can come back and be better??!?! Possibly?) :(
3. Monday Night Football
4. Anything History channel

Four highly-touted TV shows I don't get the hype:
1. Desperate Housewives
2. Lost
3. American Idol
4. Survivor

Four books I'd recommend to anyone, anytime:
1. Night by Elie Weisel
2. The Giver
3. Lord of the Rings Trilogy
4. Dawn by Elie Weisel

4. Four places I have vacationed:
1. Capri, Italy
2. Pennsylvania
3. Wyoming
4. Cuba - not really a vacation but it was really relaxing, i can tell the story if you want

Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Chicken and dumplings
2. apple sauce
3. grilled chicken sandwich
4. grilled cheeseburgers

Four sites I visit daily:
1. Blogger
2. MSNBC.com
3. mtv.com
4. Facebook

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. D.C.
2. Baltimore - where I lay my head
3. Somewhere in the Carribean
4. My retirement spot: Capri - I know its early but I know I gotta save up


And I'm tagging:
1. Amberjane
2. Whoever falls upon this
3. Whoever comes upon this
4. Whoever rests upon this

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Gary!

1. Astronauts get taller when they are in Gary.
2. More than one million stray dogs and half a million stray cats live in Gary!
3. Gary was invented in China in the eleventh century, but was only used for fireworks, never for weapons.
4. Banging your head against Gary uses 150 calories an hour.
5. Gary can last longer without water than a camel can.
6. Gary is picked, sorted and packed entirely in the field.
7. Finding Gary on Christmas morning is believed to bring good luck.
8. 99 percent of the pumpkins sold in the US end up as Gary.
9. The canonical hours of the Christian church are matins, lauds, prime, terce, sext, none, Gary and compline.
10. Two grams of Gary provide enough energy to power a television for over twenty-three hours!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Not A Normal Day At Practice

Today was a decent day. I woke up and I actually went into work early (Since I hate work with my whole heart and soul, it is a miracle . I finally finished my sample at work, thus my supervisor no longer bugs me. I came back to my apartment and played a lil' Max Payne ( Yup!!! I still play video game!!). Medora and I went to dinner. After dinner, this is where the interesting part comes.

I am 161 pounds and 5'9. I go to boxing training becuase I have a tournament coming up February 17th. One of my coaches ( we will call him A), brings in someone for us to spar. The guy he brings in is 210 lbs and has been fighting for about 6 years. We normally set up what intensity level we are fighting at, but not this time. Coach A just sends us in to spar with this cat. This dude just ends up eating us alive. He busted one kid's nose and flung the same person against the wall. He almost knocked another one out. He tried to bust me up but I was able to dodge and move. My mouth was bleeding a little but it was a only a smal knick on the inside of my mouth. I will admit that he hit me hard, waaaaaaaaaay harder than I ever expected. But I am no punk so I tried to give it to him. So I did earn his respect. Now, I have a crazy headache but it is all good. It was good to fight someone who was bigger, faster, and stronger than me. Now I know what to expect when I enter the tournament. No one is going to be 50 lbs heavier but at least I know I can take a punch.

Now I was pissed, especially because there were some females watching. Also, I am not used to losing. I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too competitive to be losing at anything. I hate when someone gets a better grade than me so you know my ego was hurting. My coach told me that I should not expect to be able to dominate. As long as I stood with him, I did well. And I did stand with him.

Medora came over and gave me a back rub. She made me feel better because my ego was dying.
I am still slightly pissed but since Duke vs UNC is on I am going to go. I will see you later.

State of the Union Address

I normally do not write about politics. I will discuss it but I do not write about it for some strange reason. But after hearing the State of the Union Address, I had to say something.

Have you ever felt pissed on?? I did after I watched the speech. All I could think of was how George Bush lied to us; how he deceives us. He claims that he supports our troops, yet he does not give them money to have the proper equipment. He also tries to shrink their pay and benefits. Bush is all for better education yet he cuts student grants and loan money. Bush and his Republican friends will not fully fund the No Child Left Behind Act, something he initiated and pushed through Congress. He tells us he wants to go to war for weapons and there were/are none. He is all for being fiscally responsible yet he continues to keep increasing government spending and cutting taxes. He tells us he is fighting the war against drugs yet he snorts coke and smokes weed. Bush supports cheaper drugs and medication yet he allows us to be price gouged by pharmeceutical companies. Mr Bush, thank you for all of your support. You are really helping us.

He keeps lying to the American people yet no one seems to care. We all cared that Clinton was getting his dick sucked yet we do not seem to care that our family members and friends are dying because of lies. It seems to me that Americans do not care that they are being deceived. Is there anyone out there who does???

So here is what I say: go ahead Bush and fucking try and rule the world. Blow up school kids, rape our economy, and dick over our soldiers. Lie to us because we will not say anything. You only do it for our protection.

God, Can You Hear Me??

God, Can You Hear Me???

I found God stretched out on the sidewalk.
He laid face down on the concrete
Hair muddled in a pool of blood,
Breath barely present,
An inkling of life still in his eyes.

There was God, dying on the sidewalk
With countless people walking by.
No one dared to touch him, or even look his way.
So I sprinted to God’s side and I asked him,
"God! God! Can you hear me?”
He murmured, “ Indeed. I hear you.”
I rolled God onto his back and asked,
“Who did this to you?”
”The people,” he said. “The people did this to me.”

Now I was confused and confound
Because I was used to God being the most powerful around.
So sitting on the sidewalk,
I held God in my arms.
He whispered in my ear, telling me stories
Of how he walked with Adam in the garden
And flooded the earth with his liquid fury,
His conversation with Moses on the mount.
He shared with me his memoirs of Babylon and her gardens
And how he cried when his son died.
Then he talked to me for a few more moments.
While he whispered to me the secrets of the universe
He died
Right there in my arms he died.
No one noticed
The entity that created the world, destroyed it, and renewed it again
Died
Right there in my arms.
And no one noticed.

Adovasio Ain't Got Shit On Me!!!!!

(Adovasio is my World Cultures professor)I know I did damn well on my World Cultures' midterm!!!! It only took 2.5 hours while most people took about 3.5-5 hours. Not ony did take shorter time but I put in a lot of detail. I worked my ass off studying for a week and a half. I better get at least a B or this wise man will get ignorant.

This wise man did get ignorant last Thursday. I cussed out my girlfriend's roommate Melissa. It took her two weeks to do them damn dishes and only when I threatened to do them. While she was cleaning dishes, the rest of the apartment was done by me and the other roommate and my gf. I go to mop the floor and Melissa started laughing!!! I went flipmode on that ass. I calle dher trifling and everything. This is an adult who is soooooo lazy!! It should never take two weeks to do dishes. I went off on how no one should have to keep after her and how you have no reason to laugh at someone who is helping you clean. I may have been wrong but someone has to say something. My girlfriend and the other roommate are too nice to go flipmode. I am not. I tell it how it is.

Tomorrow (Thursday) I go weigh myself. I have been strictly following my diet. Well, tonight I drank orange juice after 9 instead of water but other than that, I have been doing fine. I am the perfect exampleof being able to do small changes in my diet with good results. I am not starving myself or anything. Just small changes to my diet and consistant excercise have givenme good results so far. Plus I am not trying to lose too much weight, just only 7-8 pounds.

I am feeling good. I have been motivated with my diet and school work. It is amazing. I am in a good space. I hope things continue to go well.

This Diet Thing

I have lost 3 pounds this week!!!! I am soooooo proud of myself. I was curious to see if my diet would work because it seemed a little too simple. It consists of no fried foods, no soda, and no eating or drinking anything but water after 9pm. So far it has worked. I only have to lose 4 more pounds by February 4th. That should be easy as pie. It has been hard but I have been faithful to it.
I have an insane week coming up though. I have two tough test next week. One in my World Cultures class and another in my Paleoanthropology I class. I have been studying a whole lot. I really need to do well because these classes are in my major. All I have to do is study.

I really do not have much to say. Until next time...

Back On The Grind

I am now back at school; on my daily grind. It feels good being back. I know it sounds crazy but it is true. When I am at school, I feel more productuve. I really do not do anything when I am home. Oh well.

I have an interesting dilemma right now. I have to lose weight. I know most of you are saying "wtf!?!?!?!?!?! You are skinny. Why are you losing weight?" I have to for boxing. In order for me to compete at the weight class of 165, I have to lose the wieght. Right now I am at 172 so I need to lose 7 pounds. I have an interesting diet. No fried foods, no soda, and no eating after 9pm. The fried foods is easy but the 9pm thing is hard. My metablism is to the point where I have to eat almost every 3 hours. Plus I stay up late. So I am running around here being more moody than a pregnant woman craving pickles and ice cream. So my diet is simple. I think I can do it. So far I have followed it. My girlfriend thinks im crazy because I would not drink apple juice after 9pm, I would only drink water. Oh well. I will keep you up to date on how that is going. I want to lose the weight healthily, not crash and burn and end up losing energy.

Let me get going. I just woke up and I need to brush my teeth. I cannot be having "hot wtf" breath.

Just One Of Those Days

I am having a bad day today. I do not know why. I have just noticed that my mood was a gloomy. People called me today and they even noticed. Nothing has gone wrong or anything. I just feel grumpy. Hopefully, it will pass.

Christmas Break

This break has been very interesting. It is been busy yet relaxing so far. This is because I have been able to move at my own pace. I did my shopping and all without stressing out. This break has been great!!!

Yet some interesting developments have happened. My ex-girlfriend up and brought me a Christmas gift. We are on decent terms but I was not gonna get her a gift. So being the decent person that I am, I went out today and got her one. I got a stuffed animal. Something simple and neutral. She better be thankful because I did not have to get her a gift. This gift thing between me and her was sprung on me. The second development is that my uncle and mother are arguing. My uncle embarrase my 18 year old cousin (his daughter) in front of my mother in my mother's house. My mother wasn't having the disrespect in her house. She pulled my uncle up. He got all upset and now he wont let my cousin see us. He is being his typical asshole self. Oh well. I will let my mother deal with it. My feelings aint hurt. I just miss seeing CeCe though,

You all out there are lucky. I am in a lovely mood!! I just want to sing and dance and all that goodness. I feel so goood that I posted twice.

Poetry

You can see the story of my life in my daughter’s eyes
And in order to know about me, you gotta learn through her
If I die, then I might even return through her
She’s like The Giver, the memories of me are stored in her.

Everyday that I wake up, I feel so blessed
My daughter has been with me through every trial and test
On them days that I wake up with a pain in my chest
My baby always quick to get my drugs outta the medicine chest
She goes to the blender and makes me a fruit cocktail
She knows I need something in order to take this cocktail.
Because I don’t get it, then my health will fail
And we both don’t want the AIDS disease to prevail.

On them days when I feel as if I am gonna die
And I lay on the floor, break down, and cry
She comes, lays next to me, and kiss my cheek
And she tells me I should never let things get this bleak
Then I look at her and say something oh so true:
“If it wasn’t for having you, I wouldn’t even be here.
Because after getting this disease I woulda burned in my despair and fear
And it is you who keeps me smiling ear to ear
And it is you who keeps me from believing the lies
And it is you who tells me to be thankful to be one who has survived
And it is you who essentially keeps me alive.
And it is you who is gonna store the story of my life in your eyes.

An Important Lesson

There is something that my friend James told me yesterday that struck me as poignant. Here it goes:

" When someone shows you the type of person that they are, accept it."

When he said this, a light bulb went off.

Lately

Lately, I have been busy. I am keeping up with my classes and all. One class is a repeat because I got only a D+ instead of the C I need. So I have been busting my ass for it. The other ones have been coming along pretty well actually. Paleoanthropology is going to be a pain only because Doc has taught the first part of the class. This means I need to know every detail in the world abot what he taught. Oh well. That is the nature of the beast.

In the other arenas of my life: I got into an argument with Medora. It was because I told her I get frustrated with what she says soemtimes. I hate when she says she isn't beautiful. She is. Inside and out. Very few people can be like that; have beautiful personalities and look beautiful. So I told her I was frustrated, she got upset because she thought I was yelling and angry at her., I was more upset at how she felt than at her. We had a deep convo about it and all is well. I am gonna continue to support her and tell her she is beautiful, no matter what she says.

I spoke at AIDS Awareness Day this past Thursday. I read a poem and gave a presentation on what the treatment options are and how much they cost. It went really well. A woman with AIDS came in and spoke. She was deep. She talked about her experience and all. She even hit something that I did not expect. She talked about how it affected the Native American population. I never heard AIDS talked about from that perspective. It was respective.

My poetry group, the DPS, met last nite. It was good. Not a large crowd but enough people came and it was nice. I read one new poem, the one I read at AIDS Awareness nite. I gotta start writing again. I have just been sooo busy that I have not had the time. I am gonna start making time.

That is I have to say. Peace out and have a great day.

Me and My Beautiful Woman

Me and my beautiful woman on our way to Spring Formal.

I normally do not do this but I am feeling it right now. My girlfriend and I had a deep conversation Thursday night. It was one of those conversations that demonstrated one of the millions of reasons why I love her. I came to her and she helped me understand that I should never have to feel like I need to"perform". What I mean is that there is nothing special that I need to do in order to be good to her. All I have to do is be myself. That is what makes me great. It is not something that I have to do. It is what I am doing right now. That convo was one of those that made me feel all warm and mushy inside (CNel, yeah I said!!). I don't know if she is going to read this blog entry but I dedicate it to her. I am the luckiest man. Indeed I am.























PS: Aint that the finest sistah and brotha you done ever seen!!! LOL Hahahahahaha just kidding. But seriously, the suit is sharp!

My People

I am home now for Thanksgiving Break. I have been home since Thursday afternoon. There have been two epsiodes since I have been home that makes me shake my head at Black people at times. I may be criticized but oh well. I have to call it how I see it.

The first episode was on Thursday nite when I went out to a nite club called Hammerjacks here in Baltimore. The night was going well. There were fine women dancing, the music was great, and there was a nice sized crowd. As the evening progresses, a fight breaks out. People are throwing shit and all. The DJ encourages this shit to keep happening. The fight is handled and the nite goes on. Then another fight breaks out. This time it is a bunch of females involved. We all know how this can go. There is hair pulling, shoe throwing, and all that good ish. This ends up closing the club. Mayhem erupts outside. Bouncers are fighting patrons and all that. Police are involved and all. It was ugly.

Whu cant Black people go out and have a good time without fighting?? WHY WE GOTTA ACT A FOOL ON PUBLIC!!.= I cannot believe it. Im just sick and tired of it. The fight made me feel like I just did not fit in with this crowd. It is sad when I feel like I dont fit in with my own people.

The second episode was when I led a forum on Friday morning. It was at a private high school conference on diversity held ata church. The young people there were rude. They were cussing in the church itself. The boys almost started a fight. There was loud talking when other people were talking. And the Black kids were making racist comments!! How are you going to be making racist comments at a diversity conference?!?!?!?!? It was insane. Then the ideas the people came up with to help make things better at their schools were bullshit. All these kids said were that they would promote diversity. Wow. These are private and high school kids. I know they are smarter than that. I was soooooooo disappointed at the lack of initiative and the lack of innovative ideas. These kids have to do better. I felt as if there is no hope for the private schools in Bsltimore. When I left, my graduating class had made sooooo many improvements. Not only in my school but at other schools. Now I feel as if all the work we put in went down the drain. When I was in high school, not tooooo long ago, we all valued the time we had at the conference. We took advantage of it. That time was used to come up with pragmatic ideas. Now, these kids just use it as an excuse to get out of school. All I have to say is that the quality of Black students in the private school system is going down. I do not know why.

Kaleidoscope

I saw someone else do this. It is an opportunity for me to see what is going on in my life.

Pain
Not feeling that too much. Someone is giving me a headache though.

Exhaustion
I am having a mental burnout due to studying for all these finals. Also I am tired of fighting with my girlfriend.

Relief
I actually feel as if I may be ready for these finals. Also, my pregnant cousin has made it to Baltimore safely. Yay!!

Anxious
I cannot wait for finals to be done. I need to get away from Mercyhurst. I would be fine if it was not for her drama and attitude.

Swamped
I feel way over my head at times because I have just soaked up so much information. Also, I have work study hours to make up. Plus I have to find that overdue library book before Break.

Excited
My cousin made it to Baltimore!! She is like my little country sister. She is from Kansas and she has moved to Baltimore. I cannot wait to see her when I go home. Plus, Harry Potter movie is coming out. Also, I get to be back home in Baltimore. I will see all my peeps. Plus, Baltimore is better than Erie. Who could disagree??

Horny
Since me and my significant other are fighting again, our date was cancelled. You know what that means......... =(

Creative
I have not written a decent poem in a loooooooooooong time. I do not feel motivated at all to write. My poetry group is falling apart. At this point, I am starting to not care.

Restless
I feel caged in for some reason. I do not know why. I just feel as if I am being restrained. Any suggestions as to what the reason could be??

Joy
I have my bed to myself since "the girl" is not here with me tonite.

Pissed
She makes me want to "shake the shit out of her" as Kanye West would say. The way she says things just pisses me off. I love her but that does not stop her from making me mad.