Epsilonicus Religiosus

A friend of mine practically called me a heathen. She started talking to me about how I am not following God's plan since SHE didn't like the decisions I am making. I told her I do not believe God creates a "plan" and forces us to follow. I thought she was going to hurl a Bible through the phone.

Let me explain. I just do not think God has a preset plan for people. It seems counterintuitive. Why would God give us intelligence and free-will just to turn around and force onto some

pre-determined path. No where in the Bible did God ever force someone to believe. People came to follow God's law choice. I see God as being about choice. God wants people to come to "him" a choose to love him. We can either choose to follow or not choose. The consequences of choices, good or bad, happen because of decisions we make. That is the beauty of it all. We get to choose...

Little Update

- I start my new job on October 1st. I am excited. The best birthday gift during a recession: a job! I am going to be working with a non-profit doing a bit of everything. A little workforce enhancement, community development. Whatever they need me to do. So I am definitely ready to start working.

- My birthday is on October 1st. My gf has something planned for me. I do not know what it is but I know it will be good. She also has my gift already. I know where she hid it but I have not looked at it. I do not want to ruin the surprise. I know it will be better than my last birthday where I watched football at a bar on a Wednesday. Its all good.

- I have found a new show I like during my time of unemployment: The View. I actually like the show and I have been watching it avidly. I just like the discussions. My only complaint is that they invited Kate Gosselin on the show to guest host. She just sits there and does not say anything unless its about her

- This leads me to another complaint. I cannot stand Kate Gosselin. How can she be so upset if she mistreated her husband. If you ever saw the show "Jon & Kate Plus 8" you would know she treated Jon like poop. What do you expect? You treat someone badly and eventually they will leave. Its simple science.

Music of My Life Part 1

Some friends were posting on Facbook various videos that brought back memories for them. That made me think this morning about all the music and music artists that had a big importance in my life. This collection will seem weird but it all makes sense. Well, at least to me it does.

Jon B. - Cool Relax

This was the first R&B album I ever bought. I was in middle school and I thought dude was so smooth. I never knew white dudes could be smooth like that. Even my mother liked this cd. I used to use his lines to try and mack on the girl down the street. I used to try and be slick and whisper them in her ear. It might sound wack but at the time it seemed right. I would strol down the street and sit real close while on her steps. Then I would whisper in her ear:

"Girl it's alright baby

'Cause it's there in your eyes yeah

I can see that you want meBy the way that you smile

Are you still down for me"

Sadly, it was never too successful.

Donell Jones - Where I Wanna Be

This is another R&B album that affected my middle school mind. I used to be able to sing when I was in middle school. Adolescence had not twisted and warped my voice. I had a decent singing voice and I used to sing this album around the house. I just thought it was so tight. I would play it over and over. I w

ould sing the lead single "Where I Wanna Be" in the shower, in school, walking down

the street. I would sing it anywhere. Little did I know that "Where I Wanna Be" would be a song that would play when I broke up with "her". Ehhh... it happens. Also recently, I was bumping the song "Shorty" while driving:

"Its a quarter past 3

Girl whats it gonna be

Shorty got her eyes on me"

Spice Girls

These chicks had my middle school hormones jumping. My childhood Polish friend David and

I used to argue about which one we would marry. No matter what anyone would say, Scary and Baby Spice were my favorites, Scary being the sexiest. I cant explain it.

Weird Al

This dude is the truth! All my friends thought I was weird when I started listening to him in 6th grade. I found him hilarious and witty. I just loved the music. And if you really listen, he can actually rap. I takes skill to do a "Ridin' Dirty" remix. I used to bump his music wherever I went. I had Weird Al cds and tapes!

Michael Jackson

This is by a guy named J Smooth. He is a vlogger on youtube. I subscribe to his videos and watch them whenever he updates. He did something about Michael Jackson that I found touching. It is the most thoughtful summation of Michael Jackson's life I have heard.

Rambling Man

- I should probably start blogging a bit more often. I know I say it every time I blog but I feel that way. I just get lazy and some days dont feel like turning my computer on.

- I got accepted into an Americorps program called Public Allies. I will be working with a community oragnization called WPNPC. I would be doing community development dealing with issues such as ex-offender employment, bringing businesses into the community, and housing rehab. It should be quite interesting.

- Living with the gf has been an interesting experience. I have learned that every battle is not worth fighting. Before saying something I always think "Is this something that I will think about in the morning?" If the answer is no, I just hold my tongue. Sometimes it is just not that serious.

- Sometimes my mother gets on my nerves. I love her to death but I feel thats he sometimes complains because she knows it irks me. Thus, i often just ignore her.

- Friday night I went to a high school classmate's birthday party. The guy was a kid that many people kind of ignored. I always loved him. I found him funny and intelligent. His little bday bbq started off slow but as the night wore on (i.e. he consumed more alcohol) it became more enjoyable. I am glad I went. It was a good time.

- I miss some bloggers like Wise. She never blogs anymore. Her blog entries were nice! I need to call her anyway. I have not talked to her in a while.

- Those town hall health care mobs are a set up by the right wing. Instead of debating it intelligently, they use some disrespectful means to make people scared. This is why citizens need to do their homework. This includes all of you reading. Do some research! If you disagree witht he administration, do so with some intelligence and class. Dont go mobbing politicians. That is not hot in the streets these days.

- Football season cannot start soon enough. GO RAVENS! The bad thing is that my gf is a Browns fan. I promise that I will not start any fights. Maybe I can bring her to the light....

Hustlemania

I have been busting my chops this week. I had 2 interviews Monday, another one yesterday. I have one today and another on Thursday. It is all a part of the grind.

I have also been looking for a little part time job to do on the side. Any extra money would help. Even though the Americorps Program I got accepted in provides a forbearance on my loans, I would like to get started paying on them. Also, I am starting to try and plan for my next move in the future. Part of my mistake I made with my first job out of college (teaching) was that I thought it was secure. I know now that no matter what, no position I am in is guaranteed; even if I do my best. So I have been making moves to try and secure my future.

No matter what happens, I am gonna make it do what it do

Everyday

Every night I say a prayer. In that prayer I ask God to allow me to wake up with all my faculties. Not so that I see the fruits of my labor, but so that my girlfriend will see the fruits of my labor. I ask God to allow me to do the things I need to do in order to provide a better way for us. This I pray for every night.

And so far, I have woken up with my head on straight. And everyday I work my plan in order to provide for my woman. I work hard and do what I am suppose to do.

I guess I say all of this because tomorrow I go off to meet my gf so we can move her stuff to Baltimore. I am not nervous or anxious. I am at peace. This is because I know I have tried my best to pave a way so that her adjustment is smooth. And that is what she expects from me: to try

PS: Im still Baltimore. I dont think I am fleeing to Puerto Rico. The girlfriend talked me out of it