Thursday, May 17, 2007

Letter To Myself

Dear Eps,

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU DUDE?!?!?!?!? You are off the hook. Seriously, you have been on the wild side for the past trimester. You party every weekend. Every. You may not necessarily drink but you always throwing a party. You stay up late all the time. Sleep is not something you do often. You are deranged.

You have had "relations" with some of your residents. You made out with one. The one which has a boyfriend. I know you do not care. I know it is not your problem. But you know she is going through some emotions about it. I mean she stays in your face all the time but still. Just say no. Just say no. The other lost her virginity to you. And you just had to oblige her. Again, she may have started but you could not say no. These actions can destroy friendships. You are being so selfish. You aint really thinking about no one else. Get it together! Get it together!

You have also isolated one of your roommates. You know has some issues that he will not discuss. You know he is not at that point in his life where he can just man up and bring issues up to you. Your ass should have just walked up and said something. Instead, you just ignore him. You may say hi and all but you just dont worry about his needs. Selfish man, selfish.

You would not be so wild if you listened to me. I mean I tell what is good for you, not what feels good. There is a reason you should avoid doing stuff with your residents. You should not isolate your roommate. Dude, you are changing, you really are. Just think, do you like those changes?? Do those you love like those changes??

Now to her. You know her has some hang ups. She was on some straight jealous when she heard that you and a resident hooked up. I really do not know why you even talk to her. She tries to play games and but you still talk to her. I know you love her. It is hard not to love her. But leave her be. Her has hurt you. She really did. But you keep her around. This chick is a like a drug. That high feels good but you know that coming off it is gonna be a bitch. Just be careful. As much of a player you think you are, you are still capable of being hurt.

At least your grades have not suffered. You did well. So there are no complaints. But take a look at your life. We dont need to go down certain roads. We really dont

Cordially,

Your Conscience

7 comments:

Jameil said...

wow... first there is nothing wrong with going out every weekend if you're still getting your work done. the residents thing... you knew you were playin with fire. its up to you to learn from your mistakes and be able to move on. maybe your roommate isn't really ready to own up to that stuff and its not your place to pressure him. maybe you should be giving him his space. her... your other half is right on this one. you need to let that one go.

Prophetess said...

Work it out, work it out, baby. Why don't you just leave "her" alone? I know its hard to do, but still, it can be done... or, make her leave YOU alone; one or the other, LOL!

As for the rest of it, aint nothing wrong with being alive in this world and doing your thing. Listen:

1. Have any national or international laws, treaties, or conventions been broken?

2. Have any children or small animals been harmed?

3. Is anybody bleeding, near death, or dead? Have any senior citizens been harmed?

If not, then carry on. You're just being a normal, everyday, average, red-blooded American man; and ALL men have done or are doing what you're doing. Hell,I've been there, done that, too. Especially the late night partying. But not the 'getting with the resident' thing, though. That one there is kinda tricky. But still, you know how to work it out...

Will said...

You have done something that too few people do when they need to: you kicked yourself in the ass. I wish more people would do that, rather than wait for their friends and family do it or worse, wait for some bad shyt to happen before they wake up.

I’m happy you got to that point and policed yourself.

Anonymous said...

I'm with J on all but her opinion of "her". I think you and "her", are both with faults. Knowledge and awareness of your imperfections is what makes you love one another.

The Brown Blogger said...

Awareness and reflection.

Headed in a positive direction you are because of this.

Mo said...

I love your internal dialogue. Some serious, revealing moments. I am guessing that some transformation has to come from this.

Cheers,

SRae

Ms.Honey said...

UMM...what in the world has gotten into you..I'm glad someone told you about yourself.