After last night, I have realized that I am searching for something:
Stability
I had to have a talk my my lady friend last. I told her that I need some more stable, more permanent. That things cannot stay the way they are. She has been basically getting all the benefits of a girlfriend without actually being one. So we discussed things last night and I told her I am not rushing her but I am not waiting forvever.
I guess this need for stability has been getting to me now since I am a senior. I am currently looking for work now. I am thinking about my career choices. I am preparing for my future. Thus I have been cementing my relationships. I have been anchoring them for the long run. People I know who are bad with I do not associate with. I cut them out. My circle of people I associate with has gotten smaller. I try to surround myself with people I know support and love me no matter what. There is no half stepping. You are either down or not. I have also been trying to improve my relationships with others too. I am trying to be a better friend.
But I guess what I want is stability. I want people who will be around for a long time. I guess I have started that search last night.
12 comments:
alright pimpin!! get it!
Never ceases to amaze me how together you are. At 21, I was hitching around the country. I'm so proud of you.
You were honest and up front with her..she should be thankful...
Where your questions at homie..email em to me
Hmmmmm... Growing up?
Enjoy yourself though...
Let me find out 21 has you getting your grown man on!
its great that you were so open with her... that's what best for you and her...
stability is something we all need, especially as you're getting towards the end of this chapter in your life and getting ready to move to the next phase its good to move with some stability...
At some point I think we all begin to crave a little more stability. They key to achieving it (and keeping it) is exactly what you did; you're off to a good start to accomplishing exactly what you want and need.
good luck with the stability. I'm not sure at 21 if I was ready for it. Shoot, I still might not be ready.
What 21 yr old girl is stable?
Just sayin.
Growing up so nicely, young man. :)
LoL @ Wise :
What 21 yr old girl is stable?
Tell her we come from exceptional stock, we ain't like the others.
-CNEL
P.S. The movie staring Pharrell is called "Ecology of Love" its an 18 minute short film, which I'm searching for everywhere online!
Shoot! When I was 21 I was a college drop out working with mentally deranged children for pennies..My girlfriend was cheating on me and I drank waaay too much...Hmmmm kinda sounds like my life now...lol
mmm i know im late on this one... but stability is key ... stability and consistency ... and if you know thats something thats important to you now and this age ... then youve only got good ... no great things ahead!
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